By now you all know that I became a stay at home mum when Molly was born. I have blogged a lot about how this has made me feel. Its tough being at home with just your little one for company. Amazing, but tough.
There are so many wonderful things about being a stay at home mum. I have witnessed every milestone, every tantrum, sleepless night, affection, communication, everything. Its been an absolute honour.
Of course with being there every minute its hard to know when Molly finishes and this mama begins. My life has been all about him and our family.
Two years ago I started this blog. I started it one lonely afternoon. I was, I hate to admit, at breaking point. I had a seven month old baby, few friends, and I isolated myself in a cocoon. I needed help, I wanted help but I wouldnt dream of asking for it. You may think thats strange, Why not ask for some help? I just thought people would think me weak. Maybe see me as the failure I saw myself as.
But blogging was just the help I needed. It wasnt that I needed help with how to get Molly to sleep through the night, or whatever milestone I was struggling with at that time. Although my own mum was in Australia I spoke to her daily and I had The Daddy Bear there every step of the way. The help I needed was to become myself again. Thats what blogging did for me.
The last two years have seen me improve my writing and become passionate about it. I have developed a love for photography and I really enjoy taking pictures of our family life. I have experienced some amazing things, worked with brands I admire and fast forward to today my blog is no longer my hobby but my lifeline.
My writing has become my job. A job I never thought I would be doing when I made a decision to be a stay at home mum. I suppose Im now best associated as a working from home mama and its both scary and exciting.
The juggle will be hard. I still have very limited childcare, and whilst I can utilise nursery more, I need to make sure that what I am doing is something for the longterm and not a short-term fix. I need to be comfortable with that before committing.
So the days will be long, the minutes will be busy and I may feel stretched beyond anything I have ever felt before. But this feels good, it feels right. Im so excited to work on my writing more and to provide more for our family. I have so many to thank. My partner for putting up with me and pushing me to chase the dream, my family for listening to me go on and on about blogging and writing. To my son, who has persevered with a camera in his face. Modelled for me when he perhaps didnt feel like it, and let his mama work when he just wanted her to play dinosaurs with him.
But I am also going to thank myself for having the confidence two years ago to step out of my comfort zone and pursue something I enjoyed doing. It took a lot of courage, and I certainly havent given myself enough credit for it.
It has long since come to my attention, that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things Leonardo Da Vinci.
The Daddy Bear emulates this quote, and it has rubbed off on me. If you want something you have to go out and get it. If you work hard then you make things happen. This is the message I want to pass on to friends and my own children. If you are wanting to build your blog, start one even. If you are wanting to progress in work or just improve things at home. Be the person who goes out and makes it happen. You have nothing to lose but everything to gain.