Last year wasnt my best year in the way of positivity. I found myself totally lost and really trying to grow into my new role as mum without losing myself completely. It was an isolating time in my life where some days I really just thought is this it. Looking back I feel totally selfish for all those horrible thoughts on those dark days because I have a fantastic life and I am incredibly lucky.
A few months ago I had a turning point and things started to get better, I started to feel more like me again and as promised I am going to share with you some of the ways that got me through the baby blues and out the other end a new me, a better me and a loving and caring mum. One of the main things was to remember and acknowledge exactly what I was grateful for everyday. In the evening before I went to sleep I would think of one thing about my day I was grateful for, even on a really bad day I challenged myself to find just one thing to be thankful for.
At first I found it hard. I was so overwhelmed with negativity that I honestly couldnt see one positive aspect of my day but determined to not fall at the first hurdle I would relive my day and find something that would put a smile on my face before I went to sleep. It could have been the littlest thing from a hot coffee or a warm bath to the big things like Baby L eating his whole dinner or a glass of the bubbly stuff just because. As the days went on it got easier and I would find myself feeling grateful throughout the day for all sorts of things rather than just thinking about it at night.
There is a lot to be said for just being grateful for exactly what you have at that moment. Its great to dream and think about the future and of course that is an important point but if you dont live in the moment you are forever living for tomorrow. Being in the moment and feeling truly grateful for what you have changes your whole outlook on life.
Since starting this little process of thankfulness and feeling grateful I am a much more positive person than I was. I have always been fairly positive throughout my life but the baby blues sort of stripped that away from me. Im so lucky I had people around me to keep my spirits high and reassure me when I was feeling down. These days I can wake up and sometimes I give myself a little smile and feel grateful for uninterrupted sleep. Sounds daft hey? The mind is a crazy thing and honestly if you would have told me a few months ago that I would feel this way after making a few changes to my life I would have thought you were insane.
Try it yourself, before you go to bed tonight, or even right now, take one moment out of your day that you are grateful for and smile to yourself. Challenge yourself to change the way you think.
What are you grateful for today?